I stood in front of the mirror
Talked to myself over and over
Why I just can’t speak out loud
Bring my thoughts to the surface
I guess I was so afraid

But now, after what I’m beneath
Struggling to look again to the pale moon’s light
The same light which hold my eyes
I’ve lived long enough in this disguise
To see all the people I cared for betray me
Spitting on my soul as they killed it

Long before I was born, I was cursed
Cursed to carry the world’s lies
I’m lost, seeking the beauty within
The rain I used to love stopped falling
Just blowing winds coming at my window
Making ice drops from my tears

I’ve spent 1000 nights staring at the sky
Until I seduced the dark
Until I touched the unseen tortured lights
Until I discovered the true lie

Behind me there was broken glass
In front there was a dying dove
Looking at me with despise
Trees of blazing light surrounding me
Blinding my eyes
The dove’s completely black eyes

Then I closed my eyes
To hear the silence of night
To remember the cruel childhood games
The green woods and the silver lakes
I used to hide in to cry

A music box without a sound
A park without the children’s laughter
A book without a title
A bottle without a wine
That’s what I can remember
That’s all what’ve left
From my broken home

I opened my eyes again
Yet still the same dying dove
Yet I’m still in the same glass scenery

Then I screamed and screamed
Nobody answered but the crows
They cried upon the air
And then they left so far away

My bleed will keep on descending
All I need is to close my eyes again
And leave my body to die

Cause I don’t want to go back
I don’t want to be home
To hear the sound of the dead walls
Listen to the gloomy light talking unbearable words

I lost all I used to have
And now I’m gambling on all that I don’t have
The butterfly, the amaranth and the rapture light
I’m a loner longing for the last dream
The greed that I lost inside my soul

Forgive me my father
For nothing I did
You were never sorry, never wrong
But someday you’ll cry blood instead of tears
For all what you did to me
Forsaken me like the tree forsakes the flowers
Leaving me in the dark, while you could’ve put in the light

You kept on blaming me
Killing my innocence was not enough
So you killed my heart
Squeezed it in your bare hands

I’m sorry for nothing you gave
Not a word, not a whisper
But I’m not sorry for
Hating you, hating you all